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Amber Scorah* ishte gjenerata e tret\u00eb nga familja e saj q\u00eb besonte se p\u00ebr \u00e7do pyetje, apo sfid\u00eb t\u00eb v\u00ebshtir\u00eb q\u00eb jeta mund t\u2019i vinte p\u00ebrball\u00eb e kishte p\u00ebrgjigjen. P\u00ebrgjigjia ishte Armagedon; gjith\u00e7ka \u00ebsht\u00eb e shkruar. \u201cN\u00ebse bota \u00ebsht\u00eb drejt fundit, pse duhet t\u00eb shkosh n\u00eb kolegj? P\u00ebrse t\u00eb duhet karriera\u201d, thot\u00eb Amber. K\u00ebshtu veproi edhe ajo dhe t\u00eb gjith\u00eb an\u00ebtar\u00ebt e tjer\u00eb t\u00eb kish\u00ebs q\u00eb besonte. N\u00eb vend t\u00eb k\u00ebsaj, ajo dhe t\u00eb tjer\u00ebt ja kushtuan jet\u00ebn p\u00ebrhapjes s\u00eb asaj q\u00eb besonin.<\/p>\n
Amber u martua 22 vje\u00e7 dhe s\u00eb bashku me bashk\u00ebshortin u zhvendos n\u00eb Kin\u00eb p\u00ebr t\u00eb punuar si misionare. Gjith\u00e7ka duhej t\u00eb mbahej sekret, pasi predikimi n\u00eb Kin\u00eb ishte i paligjsh\u00ebm. Por, si p\u00ebr \u00e7do gj\u00eb t\u00eb ndaluar, kureshtja \u00ebsht\u00eb e madhe. P\u00ebr k\u00ebt\u00eb arsye, puna n\u00eb Shangai si misionare e fsheht\u00eb p\u00ebr \u201ct\u00eb shp\u00ebtuar shpirtra\u201d ishte me ritme gjall\u00ebruese.<\/p>\n
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\u201c\u00cbsht\u00eb si t\u00eb kesh gjetur nj\u00eb argument ekzistencialist. Nj\u00eb mision p\u00ebr jet\u00ebn. Nuk ka asgj\u00eb krahasuese kur merr dik\u00eb q\u00eb ka t\u00eb tjera pik\u00ebpamje p\u00ebr jet\u00ebn, nj\u00eb sistem besimi krejt\u00ebsisht tjet\u00ebr dhe i flet e i flet e n\u00eb fund shikon q\u00eb ka ndryshuar mendim. \u00cbsht\u00eb si t\u00eb t\u00eb vulos\u00eb n\u00eb mendje se p\u00ebrfundimisht ti je me t\u00eb v\u00ebrtet\u00ebn\u201d, kujton Amber.<\/p>\n
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Megjithat\u00eb, nj\u00eb seri ngjarjesh t\u00eb m\u00ebvonshme e l\u00ebkund\u00ebn bindjen e Amber p\u00ebr t\u00eb v\u00ebrtet\u00ebn. Ato \u00e7uan n\u00eb humbjen e besimit dhe nxit\u00ebn nj\u00eb apokalips t\u00eb brendsh\u00ebm p\u00ebr t\u00eb. P\u00ebr k\u00ebt\u00eb, Amber Scorah ka botuar edhe nj\u00eb lib\u00ebr me kujtime me titull \u201cT\u00eb l\u00ebsh D\u00ebshmitar\u00ebt: Dalja nga nj\u00eb fe dhe gjetja e jet\u00ebs\u201d.<\/p>\n
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N\u00eb Shangai, Amber filloi pun\u00eb tek nj\u00eb \u201cstart up\u201d i quajtur ChinesePod, q\u00eb ofron kurse t\u00eb gjuh\u00ebs kineze n\u00eb internet. K\u00ebtu m\u00ebsoi t\u00eb flas\u00eb gjuh\u00ebn mandarine dhe k\u00ebtu zhvilloi dhe drejtoi podcast-in \u201cDear Amber: The Insider Guide to Everything China\u201d. Por, mes detyrave fillestare t\u00eb saj ishte menaxhimi i aktivitetit online dhe korrespondenca me p\u00ebrdoruesit, detyr\u00eb q\u00eb e vendosi n\u00eb kontakt me p\u00ebrdoruesin me emrin Taipan, emri i v\u00ebrtet\u00eb i t\u00eb cilit ishte Jonathan.<\/p>\n
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\u201cJonathan ishte thjesht nj\u00eb d\u00ebgjuar, asgj\u00eb m\u00eb shum\u00eb. Nuk kisha n\u00eb plan q\u00eb ta zhvilloja m\u00eb tej marr\u00ebdh\u00ebnien time me t\u00eb, por ne thjesht filluam t\u00eb flasim p\u00ebrdit\u00eb. Temat e para t\u00eb diskutimit ishin t\u00eb thjeshta, \u00e7\u00ebshtje t\u00eb dit\u00ebs dhe m\u00eb von\u00eb evoluuan n\u00eb \u00e7\u00ebshtje m\u00eb komplekse e t\u00eb thelluara\u201d, kujton Amber.<\/p>\n
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Mes k\u00ebtyre \u00e7\u00ebshtjeve ishin edhe vet\u00eb bazat e besimit t\u00eb saj si pjes\u00ebtare e Organizat\u00ebs \u201cD\u00ebshmitar\u00ebt e Jehovait\u201d.<\/p>\n
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\u201cN\u00eb nj\u00eb moment i tregova p\u00ebr besimin tim. M\u00eb von\u00eb ai m\u00eb thot\u00eb se \u201cD\u00ebshmitar\u00ebt e Jehovait\u201d ishin t\u00eb pest\u00ebt n\u00eb list\u00ebn e besimeve t\u00eb tij t\u00eb preferuara. Ai b\u00ebri at\u00eb q\u00eb mua as m\u00eb shkonte nd\u00ebrmend, q\u00eb t\u00eb edukoja dhe m\u00ebsoja veten time p\u00ebrtej atyre q\u00eb m\u00eb ishin lejuar t\u00eb lexoja; q\u00eb ishin vet\u00ebm publikimet e organizat\u00ebs ton\u00eb\u201d, shton m\u00eb tej Amber.<\/p>\n
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Megjithat\u00eb, p\u00ebr t\u00eb qen\u00eb e ndershme, Amber thot\u00eb se edhe para k\u00ebtij momenti ndjente hera-her\u00ebs doza dyshimi mbi k\u00ebndv\u00ebshtrimin q\u00eb kishte p\u00ebr bot\u00ebn dhe njer\u00ebzit q\u00eb e rrethonin deri n\u00eb at\u00eb moment.<\/p>\n
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\u201cIsha n\u00eb nj\u00eb vend t\u00eb huaj, n\u00eb nj\u00eb kultur\u00eb t\u00eb huaj dhe flisja nj\u00eb gjuh\u00eb t\u00eb huaj, nj\u00eb gjuh\u00eb q\u00eb p\u00ebr ta m\u00ebsuar t\u00eb ndryshon komplet m\u00ebnyr\u00ebn e t\u00eb menduarit. Kjo m\u00eb b\u00ebri q\u00eb t\u00eb d\u00ebgjoja me vesh tjet\u00ebr t\u00eb gjitha ato predikime q\u00eb kisha d\u00ebgjuar deri n\u00eb ato momente. Kuptoja se disa nga gj\u00ebrat q\u00eb vet\u00eb flisja dhe vet\u00eb d\u00ebgjoja ting\u00ebllonin \u00e7uditsh\u00ebm, p\u00ebr t\u00eb mos th\u00ebn\u00eb \u00e7menduri. Fillova t\u00eb kuptoja se isha pak arrogante. Flisja me njer\u00ebz q\u00eb kan\u00eb nj\u00eb histori dhe kultur\u00eb mij\u00ebravje\u00e7are dhe u flisja p\u00ebr nj\u00eb besim 100-vje\u00e7ar duke u k\u00ebrkuar q\u00eb t\u00eb hidhnin posht\u00eb t\u00eb gjitha ato \u00e7far\u00eb kishin arritur prej mij\u00ebra vitesh\u201d, tregon ajo.<\/p>\n
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Dyshimet ishin dyshime dhe ishte Jonathan ai q\u00eb e detyroi t\u00eb p\u00ebrballej drejtp\u00ebrdrejt\u00eb me besimet e saj. Bisedat e thella me t\u00eb vazhduan dhe gjat\u00eb nj\u00eb udh\u00ebtimi n\u00eb Shtetet e Bashkuara t\u00eb Amerik\u00ebs u takua edhe fizikisht me t\u00eb. Marr\u00ebdh\u00ebnia shkoi p\u00ebrtej bisedave p\u00ebr besimin, duke u shnd\u00ebrruar n\u00eb di\u00e7ka m\u00eb shum\u00eb. Amber thot\u00eb se n\u00eb at\u00eb moment kuptoi q\u00eb kishte arritur n\u00eb nj\u00eb pik\u00eb pa kthim pas.<\/p>\n
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\u201cE bukura \u00ebsht\u00eb q\u00eb nuk shkova t\u00eb takoj Jonathan me q\u00ebllimin q\u00eb t\u00eb shkat\u00ebrroja martes\u00ebn time. \u00cbsht\u00eb e \u00e7uditshme sepse kur je pjes\u00eb e nj\u00eb besimi, ku i gjith\u00eb k\u00ebndv\u00ebshtrimi yt \u00ebsht\u00eb apokaliptik, i vetmi fund q\u00eb di \u00ebsht\u00eb apokalipsi dhe besimi im nuk \u00ebsht\u00eb besim q\u00eb thjesht mund t\u00eb largohesh, sidomos kur je n\u00eb nj\u00eb pozicion si\u00e7 isha un\u00eb; nj\u00eb misionare shembullore, e martuar me nj\u00eb burr\u00eb t\u00eb moshuar, me mision n\u00eb nj\u00eb tok\u00eb t\u00eb huaj. N\u00ebse thjesht do t\u00eb largohesha nuk do t\u00eb funksiononte\u201d, tregon ajo.<\/p>\n
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Por, q\u00ebndrimi nuk ishte m\u00eb i nj\u00ebjt\u00eb, Bashk\u00ebshorti, miqt\u00eb, familja dhe pjesa m\u00eb e madhe e komunitetit t\u00eb saj t\u00eb besimtar\u00ebve e shmangnin dhe p\u00ebr m\u00eb tep\u00ebr as me Jonathan lidhja e krijuar nuk zgjati shum\u00eb.<\/p>\n
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\u201cNuk m\u00eb ngeli rrug\u00eb tjet\u00ebr, p\u00ebrve\u00e7se t\u00eb largohesha p\u00ebr nj\u00eb fillim t\u00eb ri. N\u00eb at\u00eb koh\u00eb po lexoja di\u00e7ka ku dikush shkruante se \u201casnj\u00ebher\u00eb nuk mund t\u00eb ndryshosh pa humbur di\u00e7ka\u201d. Vazhdimisht njer\u00ebzit k\u00ebrkojn\u00eb ndryshimin n\u00eb jet\u00ebn e tyre, por nuk e arrijn\u00eb at\u00eb nga frika e humbjes. Nuk mund ta kesh t\u00eb par\u00ebn pa t\u00eb dyt\u00ebn\u201d, shtjellon m\u00eb tej Amber.<\/p>\n
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Scorah l\u00ebviz p\u00ebr n\u00eb Nju Jork, ku bie n\u00eb dashuri dhe lind nj\u00eb djal\u00eb. K\u00ebtu p\u00ebson traum\u00ebn tjet\u00ebr, krejt t\u00eb ndryshme. N\u00eb dit\u00ebn e par\u00eb q\u00eb e d\u00ebrgoi f\u00ebmij\u00ebn n\u00eb \u00e7erdhe, ai vdiq papritur. Ishte 3 muajsh.<\/p>\n
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\u201cNuk mund t\u00eb p\u00ebrshkruaj me fjal\u00eb vuajtjen. Isha e shkat\u00ebrruar n\u00eb \u00e7do drejtim. Kur isha pjes\u00eb e D\u00ebshmitar\u00ebve t\u00eb Jehovait e kishim p\u00ebrgjigjen p\u00ebr \u00e7do t\u00eb papritur t\u00eb jet\u00ebs, p\u00ebrfshir\u00eb k\u00ebtu edhe kur t\u00eb vdes nj\u00eb njeri i af\u00ebrt. Por, ting\u00ebllon si me kuptim kur i ke k\u00ebto p\u00ebrgjigje, por realiteti \u00ebsht\u00eb se n\u00ebse i ke p\u00ebrgjigjet p\u00ebr \u00e7do pyetje q\u00eb t\u00eb ofron jeta dhe ato nuk jan\u00eb t\u00eb v\u00ebrteta, at\u00ebher\u00eb jan\u00eb t\u00eb pakuptimta\u201d.<\/p>\n
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\u201cMendova q\u00eb mund t\u00eb ket\u00eb nj\u00eb shpjegim p\u00ebr t\u00eb gjitha k\u00ebto pa p\u00ebrfshir\u00eb n\u00eb mes besimin tim dhe sot besoj se n\u00eb pjes\u00ebn m\u00eb t\u00eb madhe t\u00eb rasteve ka t\u00eb b\u00ebj\u00eb me njer\u00ebzit e tjer\u00eb dhe me dashurin\u00eb. Kjo riktheu kuptimin p\u00ebr jet\u00ebn time s\u00ebrish\u201d.<\/p>\n
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Jeta vazhdon dhe sot Amber dhe partneri i saj jan\u00eb prind\u00ebr t\u00eb nj\u00eb vajze 3-vje\u00e7are. Ajo thot\u00eb se ndjen mir\u00ebnjohje p\u00ebr p\u00ebrvoj\u00ebn q\u00eb ka kaluar.<\/p>\n
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\u201cI jam mir\u00ebnjoh\u00ebse Kin\u00ebs, sepse jam e sigurte q\u00eb n\u00ebse nuk do t\u00eb kisha udh\u00ebtuar p\u00ebr atje sot do t\u00eb isha ende nj\u00eb D\u00ebshmitare e Jehovait, q\u00eb do t\u00eb vazhdonte t\u00eb mendonte se \u00e7do dit\u00eb mund t\u00eb ishte fundi i bot\u00ebs, pra duke e harxhuar jet\u00ebn time p\u00ebr di\u00e7ka q\u00eb efektivisht \u00ebsht\u00eb nj\u00eb mit\u201d, tregon Amber.<\/p>\n
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Ajo shpreson q\u00eb t\u00eb vizitoj\u00eb s\u00ebrish Kin\u00eb dhe t\u00eb takoj\u00eb nj\u00eb ish-student me emrin Jean. Jean ndiqte predikimet e saj, por asnj\u00ebher\u00eb nuk u b\u00eb pjes\u00eb e D\u00ebshmitar\u00ebve t\u00eb Jehovait. Megjithat\u00eb, nj\u00eb miq\u00ebsi mes tyre u zhvillua dhe sot Amber shpreson p\u00ebr nj\u00eb ritakim me t\u00eb.<\/p>\n
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*Sh\u00ebnim: Amber Scorah \u00ebsht\u00eb shkrimtare, gazetare dhe aktiviste kanadeze q\u00eb jeton n\u00eb Shtetet e Bashkuara t\u00eb Amerik\u00ebs. Artikulli i m\u00ebsip\u00ebrm \u00ebsht\u00eb nj\u00eb p\u00ebrmbledhje e librit t\u00eb saj me rr\u00ebfime \u201cT\u00eb l\u00ebsh D\u00ebshmitar\u00ebt: Dalja nga nj\u00eb fe dhe gjetja e jet\u00ebs\u201d, q\u00eb qarkulloi n\u00eb qershor t\u00eb 2019-\u00ebs n\u00eb mediat nd\u00ebrkomb\u00ebtare.\/ GazetaSI.al<\/p>\n
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Amber Scorah* ishte gjenerata e tret\u00eb nga familja e saj q\u00eb besonte se p\u00ebr \u00e7do pyetje, apo sfid\u00eb t\u00eb v\u00ebshtir\u00eb q\u00eb jeta mund t\u2019i vinte…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":11,"featured_media":33570,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[14,5],"tags":[2058,2059],"class_list":["post-33569","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-bota","category-lajme","tag-isha-e-shkaterruar-ne-cdo-drejtim-rrefimi-i-nje-ish-deshmitareje-te-jehovait-drama-e-madhe-qe-perjetova-kur-i-lashe","tag-rilinda","wpcat-14-id","wpcat-5-id"],"yoast_head":"\n